love maker

i've been listening to this song and felt the urge to put the lyrics up, it's a new Saosin song

Run away and play your games
Hide well so I can't find you
I'll wait for summer to come
then laugh as the trees burn down around you
your body was just a test for me
and if I run as fast as I can the thought of your memory
will catch up with me
will catch up with me

I'm always late with my words
We tried so hard
I should have told you
but I never really cared
you always mislead me
You always got the worst of me

Its a shame that your still lying broken here
In this moment everything just seems so clear
because, Her body was just a test you see
If you run as fast as you can
the thought of my memory will catch up you see

I'm always late with my words
We tried so hard, we tried so hard
I should have told you
but I never really cared at
You always mislead me

when summer passes, I'll let go
and if you don't feel
then just take yourself out
and when summer passes let me know
so I can find meaning to live

I'm always late with my words
We tried so hard, we tried so hard
I should have told you
but I never really cared at
You always mislead me
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i'm still in a bad writing funk which annoys me to no end but with recently picking up all my amps and instruments i have a urge to touch my instruments again, if i only had cables to plug them in with...being broke sucks but i am at fault for that and that could change. ya i have an acoustic guitar but its just not the same as plugging electric instruments and hear the notes pulse through your body.


with that said i randomly came across some old pictures and felt nostalgic for a couple of reasons, A: people have been asking me about being in a band and i don't have a definite answer anymore since it's neither here or there. + B: they're also wondering why or when i'll get back on a stage to perform. + C: every time i see or hear a local band play i keep thinking to myself that it should be me playing but i have no outlet to do that with. = i feel shy/fearful of being near a stage or going on one again, things aren't really the same as they were 2 years ago. i feel that i don't have that same support system anymore with music or poetry that i had in the past and in truth i sort of don't have it, i haven't performed in about a year and things a year ago are different now. so there is still an itch to play but i haven't tried to see what it's like to do it again.


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it's no secret that i love sports, although i haven't been playing much of them lately i'm addicted to fantasy futbol/football. call it sad or a person who has no life but for the time being i think it's safe to say that fantasy sports has not ruined my life. haha

Currently Listening: Saosin - Love Maker - Grey Ep(out soon)